Why You Should Always Listen to Your Heart

By: Megan Wilson
Photo: Megan Wilson

I just finished the hardest semester of my life. And I regret taking the classes I did.

Last semester I was a part of an "exclusive" block of classes where I worked in a newsroom setting all day Monday through Friday. There were only nine of us by the end of the semester. A professor in the journalism department approached me last spring to ask if I wanted to be a part of the Digital Media Lab. He showed me the syllabus and explained what we would be doing in the class. He told me it was very hard to get in and a lot of students wanted to be a part of it. I was already going to be the yearbook editor the next year and I didn't want to take on too much, so I said no.

I met with one of my professors to ask her advice. She told me to do one or the other, because both would be too overwhelming. I should've listened. After another professor in the media lab spoke with me, he also made it seem like the media lab and the yearbook position would not be overwhelming. I didn't want to feel like I missed out on something great so after a few weeks of thinking about it, I said yes.

I was in for a shock. Over the course of the semester, the work from the media lab and yearbook kept piling up. No one was helping me in yearbook or in the media lab classes. I was constantly anxious and pessimistic about both jobs. What was wrong with me? I was always so excited to try new things.

The class focused heavily on news reporting and writing. A few weeks in, I remember telling my best friends about how I didn't want to be a journalist anymore. All of my motivation and drive for something that I once loved was gone. So I stopped writing, period.

The semester just ended so the feeling that I wasted my time is still there, but I know as time goes on I'll find that I really did learn a lot more than I thought. It was easy for a professor to tell me how great the class was because they weren't the ones juggling two jobs.

The thing that helped me get through the semester was talking with my friends and family about how I was feeling.  They encouraged me to keep going. It was something I just had to work really hard at and push through. There isn't always an easy way out and that's something I realized. Sometimes the only way out is through.

It's always hard to make decisions against something that could have a positive impact on your schooling and career, but it's always so good to trust your own instincts. Something may seem like it's doable before you start, but it's always important to not overwork yourself. You might let people down and you may have some FOMO but you'll be a lot happier. In the future, I will be more confident in my own decisions and stand my ground.