The Reality Of Skipping College

  
@josiefromspace

After high school, my decision to pass up on the next step of education came from a tributary of issues, such as dealing with a chronic illness, expenses, time, and lack of interest. For the most part, it was an automatic response to actually begin my life rather than spend my young adult season trapped in a mismanaged institution. What I didn't comprehend though, were the realities of fast forwarding a chapter would produce. 

Going on social media and seeing posts of parties or late night food runs switching into next day library study sessions and mid-term stresses, created a sort of nostalgia and fear of missing out. I realized that college is truly a buffer and transition into the real world. You gradually take on new responsibilities of caring for yourself and growing more independent whether it be financially or making appointments on your own (nerve-racking!). There are still holidays and summer break that most spend at home or on parent-paid vacations, which is probably the hardest pill to swallow for someone in my position. The idea of being able to go home for a period and collect yourself and unwind for a bit is so blissful and luxurious; even more so that most don't pay rent during summer months.

I also have a tendency to feel embarrassed when asked if I'm currently in school and feel the need to explain why. Not that I should allow the opinions of others to eat at me but I feel guarded towards my intelligence, if you will, because of the stigma in assuming I academically fell short. Today, college graduates have a difficult time landing on their feet with a proper career within the field they studied and I feel overtime, a trend will appear in the decline of enrollment because the degree is not worth the cost to go. Thus, explaining my being a writer for this blog so that I gain experience and practice; doing it this way opens up a higher chance of vulnerability though because you're competing against those who major specifically in the subjects you are trying to master on your own. 

Going to a university will always be a debatable topic with pros and cons, but for me personally, it wasn't a good fit. Forcing yourself out into the real world is a challenge as you scramble to take on new roles of being housekeeper, provider and learning adult things such as paying bills, cooking, and keeping yourself sane. It has its benefits such as feeling accomplished of moving out to a different state so young but I also remind myself sometimes to curate memories of my own comparable to those of college kids because at the end of the day, life reveals itself to be cliché by forewarning us that we're only young once.